I am 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant or so the app says. The little ‘grain of rice’ inside me is like the biggest daily question mark that no one can know about…

So I did a pregnancy test 2 weeks ago and It confirmed I was pregnant.  I am finding these weeks agony as I try my hardest to wait patiently for the 12 weeks scan. A time that should be so exciting and one you want to shout from the tree tops but because I am 38 I feel I should be all the more secretive about it. I also am churning around in my head the symptoms. Do I feel Sick? I think I do? I am tired … I am always tired.. My boobs are tender but not as tender as last week… * googles miscarriage symptoms *

I thought if I was having all these internal chats with myself I thought I might as well pour it out into a blog and see if anyone feels the same. This is actually my second pregnancy having had a successful one before with no miscarriages but some reason this one has me more aware of what could be…

So here I am mother of a 4 year old, 38 years old and about to share a very personal and often taboo 12 weeks (and maybe more) if anyone wants to read it and share… x